I was tagged by
Pseudorandom &
Santhoshi to join the tagged bandwagon.
My sweet 16 yrs old LD
You may not believe it but I’m actually you…yes you in an older form and there are things I wish to tell you and I honestly wished that this was real at one point.
To start off, you’re a bright kid but stubborn. You fight to have things your own way and you’re certainly spoilt. There may be times where you think you’re not loved enough but the truth is, you’re the most loved.
Study harder for your O/Ls. Your parents promised you internet straight after your exams. But remember to only use it during off peak hours coz if not, there will be an instance where the phone bill will be close to 25k and the internet bill will be another couple of thousands. This can make your mother yell at you endlessly and your father will advice you to limit your usage and only use during off-peak hours.
This is the age you flirt, there will be this one lovely guy who will want to be with you. But for some reason you may push him away. He will send you flowers for years on your b’day and new year and he truly cared for you. Maybe if you look at him a little differently, you’ll realize he has a lot of what you look for in a guy. But you get blinded by other things and you let this one go. Maybe for good or maybe not. I don’t know yet.
You will fall for a guy, and get hurt. Take it as experience coz he was never good enough. Move on kiddo and you still do well in your A/Ls. Pls don’t let your mother decide your subjects for you and stand up and cry if you must, to do what you want. Maybe I’ll then have a better and different future.
You will have a lot of difficulty in relating to your mother and you two will never be on the same page. But she’s the one who does a lot for you so perhaps being a little nicer and appreciating the things she do would be good.
Also, remember even in years to come, your mother will never stop about your weight and height issue. Just let it be. Coz even with all this, you still proved to her that you’re healthy and you even won swimming meets which stunned her! This will never change so just turn a deaf ear towards those coz she will never know what it’s like to have the genes you do.
Everyone around you is over-protective and you will think how unfair life is, but it’s only because they know what the world is like and instead of teaching you about it, they try to shield you away from all the things that happen in society. This is for your own good but they’re definitely way too protective.
You’ll study for a long time as it is something you love to do. Learning continuously and gathering knowledge is like satisfying this deep hunger for knowledge you have. Keep doing it. People will ask you why you didn’t turn up to be a great engineer like your dad, just tell them you have different interests and did not inherit the mathematical genius in him.:)
When you start your degree, you will fall for another guy. Not in a flirty way but in a real hard way. It will go on for a while and then things will not work out. Don’t be heart broken for too long coz it would never have worked out anyway and you will know it. You will do a lot for him and he will always be thankful for it.
But what amazes me is that you do really well in spite of all the things you’ve had to face. That makes me feel so proud right now. But remember, you need to think more about yourself than others. You’re hardly a ‘me’ person and is always about ‘you’. With time to come, you will realize how important it is to love yourself and have a relationship with yourself and pamper yourself coz you will be much happier if you do.
Try to spend as much time as possible with your father. There will be a day where he may never come home the way he left. If you ever get the chance to let him know what he means to you and that you appreciate him, pls do it. Your life will be dark afterwards….and nothing will ever be the same.. not even when you grow into me.
Then in terms of your life, you will fall into another ditch because of a guy and struggle to get out of it and put a lot of effort to climb out. In this struggle you will also learn a lot about life. When all the experiences come together, you may be more religious as you see that there’s a lot of suffering in life. Don’t get too caught up and keep doing all the good deeds you do.
I may be spoiling you by telling you what’s in store. But if there was some sort of idea as to what you may have to face, perhaps the impact could be much less.
Take care my sweet child. Once you hit your quarter life crisis, you will be making different plans to step up in your life. And pls, try harder not to light that cigarette and look towards it everytime you want peace in your mind. Drinks occasionally is ok as I know you won’t over-do it. But I do wish I will be there to slap you hard when you light that damn cigarette!
Love yourself and be happy. I don't think I covered everything, but that's all I can think of at the moment..:)
Yours truly,
25 yrs old LD.
I hereby tag -
Sach and
Sigma