Being mummy-less & locked in

Y-day my mum and a whole bandwagon of people left to a place called Meethirigala for my grandma's almsgiving to a temple in that area. I've never been there and since there were too many people going, I didn't quite feel comfortable with it.

So my brother and I stayed back. She usually calls a million times in occasions like this and last night, my brother came home past midnight as he had too much of work. So you can imagine the number of phone calls my bro and I had to answer from her throughout right?

Once he arrived we were taken through the process of locking the gate and doors while she was on call and then my bro tells me he's leaving early the next morning for classes.

So I woke up to do mummy duties for the bro by making him tea and breakfast. Then I went back to sleep and told him to use his key to lock the door and leave.

In my sleep I suddenly had this thought - "do we have a gate padlock key?"

Jumped off the bed that instant and ran downstairs while my bro was having breakfast and asked him the same question.

He froze for a minute, then checked all the possible 'key hiding' places in the house and couldn't find one. Called the mother up... only to find that she had accidentally taken the gate padlock keys and gone.. sigh

I think my bro would've either jumped over the gate or taken the other small side gate entrance which is in a far corner and rarely used. But I'm locked inside as I want to go out and have no way of taking Mandy (car) out.. sigh

And my mum's only due back late evening or at night.

What a day!

But I'm loving the peace and quiet and that feeling of being 'free'... atleast for a day.

My sweet 16 yrs old LD

I was tagged by Pseudorandom & Santhoshi to join the tagged bandwagon.

My sweet 16 yrs old LD

You may not believe it but I’m actually you…yes you in an older form and there are things I wish to tell you and I honestly wished that this was real at one point.

To start off, you’re a bright kid but stubborn. You fight to have things your own way and you’re certainly spoilt. There may be times where you think you’re not loved enough but the truth is, you’re the most loved.

Study harder for your O/Ls. Your parents promised you internet straight after your exams. But remember to only use it during off peak hours coz if not, there will be an instance where the phone bill will be close to 25k and the internet bill will be another couple of thousands. This can make your mother yell at you endlessly and your father will advice you to limit your usage and only use during off-peak hours.

This is the age you flirt, there will be this one lovely guy who will want to be with you. But for some reason you may push him away. He will send you flowers for years on your b’day and new year and he truly cared for you. Maybe if you look at him a little differently, you’ll realize he has a lot of what you look for in a guy. But you get blinded by other things and you let this one go. Maybe for good or maybe not. I don’t know yet.

You will fall for a guy, and get hurt. Take it as experience coz he was never good enough. Move on kiddo and you still do well in your A/Ls. Pls don’t let your mother decide your subjects for you and stand up and cry if you must, to do what you want. Maybe I’ll then have a better and different future.

You will have a lot of difficulty in relating to your mother and you two will never be on the same page. But she’s the one who does a lot for you so perhaps being a little nicer and appreciating the things she do would be good.

Also, remember even in years to come, your mother will never stop about your weight and height issue. Just let it be. Coz even with all this, you still proved to her that you’re healthy and you even won swimming meets which stunned her! This will never change so just turn a deaf ear towards those coz she will never know what it’s like to have the genes you do.

Everyone around you is over-protective and you will think how unfair life is, but it’s only because they know what the world is like and instead of teaching you about it, they try to shield you away from all the things that happen in society. This is for your own good but they’re definitely way too protective.

You’ll study for a long time as it is something you love to do. Learning continuously and gathering knowledge is like satisfying this deep hunger for knowledge you have. Keep doing it. People will ask you why you didn’t turn up to be a great engineer like your dad, just tell them you have different interests and did not inherit the mathematical genius in him.:)

When you start your degree, you will fall for another guy. Not in a flirty way but in a real hard way. It will go on for a while and then things will not work out. Don’t be heart broken for too long coz it would never have worked out anyway and you will know it. You will do a lot for him and he will always be thankful for it.
But what amazes me is that you do really well in spite of all the things you’ve had to face. That makes me feel so proud right now. But remember, you need to think more about yourself than others. You’re hardly a ‘me’ person and is always about ‘you’. With time to come, you will realize how important it is to love yourself and have a relationship with yourself and pamper yourself coz you will be much happier if you do.

Try to spend as much time as possible with your father. There will be a day where he may never come home the way he left. If you ever get the chance to let him know what he means to you and that you appreciate him, pls do it. Your life will be dark afterwards….and nothing will ever be the same.. not even when you grow into me.

Then in terms of your life, you will fall into another ditch because of a guy and struggle to get out of it and put a lot of effort to climb out. In this struggle you will also learn a lot about life. When all the experiences come together, you may be more religious as you see that there’s a lot of suffering in life. Don’t get too caught up and keep doing all the good deeds you do.

I may be spoiling you by telling you what’s in store. But if there was some sort of idea as to what you may have to face, perhaps the impact could be much less.

Take care my sweet child. Once you hit your quarter life crisis, you will be making different plans to step up in your life. And pls, try harder not to light that cigarette and look towards it everytime you want peace in your mind. Drinks occasionally is ok as I know you won’t over-do it. But I do wish I will be there to slap you hard when you light that damn cigarette!

Love yourself and be happy. I don't think I covered everything, but that's all I can think of at the moment..:)

Yours truly,
25 yrs old LD.


I hereby tag - Sach and Sigma

Brother's photos

My brother went to Giritale last weekend on an office trip. I've never been there but it sure does look lovely. Sadly he had left the cam home and taken shots with his phone...they're bit blurry but nice. Made me realise he does have a good eye and way of looking at things. Here are a few :
































































































Isn't the doggy just adorable? :)

Little bits

- Friend mentioned here had gone shopping two days ago, then found a nice ring and bought it for me. It was quite expensive and when I asked why the hell he spent so much, he said I was so worth it. That truly touched me. I wish there were more gay men on this planet who were my friends. :)

- We had our company day trip y-day. On the way I was wondering what the hell I was doing. But then it turned out to be alright. I won the wheel-barrow competition where a guy had to be on his hands the girl carries the legs and pushes. My partner and I made a good team and we won.:)

- On this trip I also picked many seashells for the first time after the age of 8.It was nice...picked them for DQ coz she wanted to make x'mas gifts with them.

- One of the elderly guys in office got drunk. He was annoying the hell out of many people including me. He danced funny, said weird things and then picked some random guy's underwear, sniffed it and wore it over his head. I wanted to run a mile away from him! Good thing his last day at work on Monday, coz I don't know how anyone can face the world after what he did.

I was also told that one another day, after a drink session with colleagues, same guy had gotten so high on beer, and so some colleagues had gone to drop him home.On the way, he had gotten off the tuk tuk and started to endlessly worship a Bo tree on the road.

Me is not feeling well again and I'm tired. Just bought a supply of school stationery and shoes and all for a poor child in Hatton,which is a part of some community service project that Dee told me about. That feels good right now.:)

Beautiful

I'm totally in love with song "Beautiful" by Eminem. It speaks to me..and I got my brother addicted to it too... Check it out- lyrics and video link below

Lyrics - here


Video - here

About that friend

So remember the friend I mentioned here?

Here's the latest :

- A few weeks ago, he and his grandma were having a conversation over dinner. She brought up something about hot Mexican women and nice weddings. He had casually said that he would prefer a Mexican 'man' wedding...and told her subtly that he was gay. She nearly choked on her noodles. Took a little while to understand it. Then told him never to tell his parents and that if she was alive when he got married, nothing about the wedding can be pink...and that she won't be there for too long.

Now that's a COOL grandma!

- While running on the treadmill 2 days ago he tells me he's got a hairy body and hairy arms and wants to get a good wax job done since Veet isn't that great... and asks me whether I know of any places where a man can go for a good wax job.. and I honestly don't know.

- He wanted me to go shopping with him 2 days ago coz he needed a t-shirt. Then tried all of the ones he selected which were all too tight. Finally there was one that we both agreed on. He calls me the lovely big sister he never had.:)

- He's a damn good cook who comes up with awesome mixes and recipes and his cooking is fantabulous!

- He's very caring and gives me too much chocolate coz he knows I love them. He's sensitive and tells me shyly one day that gay men like to be checked out and ask how his arm looks and whether his ass is rounded enough.

It's fun sometimes.. but not when we both are checking out the same guy...and he talks about how nicely rounded his ass is and when he bends, I even hear about what type of underwear the guy is wearing and goes on and on.. and then I tell him we shouldn't check out the same guy again..:)

- Then another friend I know who's like this friend actually pulled out a bit of his leopard print thong which he got from abroad...and this was at Pizza Hut...at a huge friend's gathering...

Sometimes the dose can be a little too much to handle ;)lol

Random

Sometimes it feels like I'm just wondering...one day to the next.. like a bird in the sky flying away...not knowing where...what next..but keeps flying... except, I don't have all that freedom!

When I walk out in the sun with my eyes behind shades, the world does not know how I look at it anymore..and sometimes neither do I know how I look at the world...

All these thoughts...are perhaps coming from a sick mind-set... and by that I mean to say I'm feeling really sick today. Thanks heavens it's Friday.

The biggest mistake I did last night... is have a bath in really warm water... and sleeping with wet hair.. it felt good.. but the results aren't that great.. and now my cataarh has gone worse and it's difficult to bare each minute I'm here in the freezing A/C at work..trying to finish up... and concentrate...

Plus my credit card has drained me out this month... never been so broke in my life! So lets call that an experience too..:)

SO what have you peeps been upto?

So...

The long weekend's almost over...and for a change I got to stay at home...and I've been really sick through-out...sigh!

Thanks to my mum who gave the flu to my bro...who in turn gave it to me...and it's just killing me right now..and I've fallen sick way too many times this year.. My immunity system must be really screwed...and highly dependent on medication...

And the song 'This Is It' by MJ brought tears to my eyes when I first heard it...and I can't stop listening to it...

The much needed evening

Last Wednesday turned out to be a not so great day at work...But the best part of it was hanging out in the evening with 2 wonderful people.

Dee was one of them... and now she knows what it's like when I've had two Long Island Iced teas. My world becomes light... I feel like I can float.. I feel relaxed.. Suddenly the world doesn't seem so bad.. and I talk too much.. I made Dee laugh a lot... and told her I might not be able to walk straight to the car (though I did) and my grammar went wrong a couple of times...

Oh I want to re-live it.. with Dee and the Long Island Iced Teas...coz the other member of the hang-out has left the island now...